I think back in time

I think back in time,
Where we had fun.
I thought it was a time,
But i still don't know.
I think of you,
All day long.
I love you, do you love me too?
I don't think so,
But i do hope!
I hoped you would never go,
But you did.
Loved it, your smile,
Your looks, your hair.
I would even walk a mile
Just to find you standing there.
I'm thinking of you,
I really love you!

Lonely Nights

Since you’re gone
There is an empty space
Since you’re gone
The world is not the same

I go back to the places we’ve been
It feels like you’re still there
I live all those moments again
Wishing you were here

Since you’re gone
There is a lonely heart
Since you’re gone
Nothing is like it was

There are memories all over the place
Bringing it back all so clear
I remember all of those days
Wishing you were here

Since you’re gone
There is a heart that bleeds
Since you’re gone
I’m not the man I used to be

I follow you're steps in the snow
The traces disappear
We know what we’ve lost when it’s gone
I’m wishing you were here

All those lonely nights
I lied on my bed and cried
I still think of you
Yes I do

Thinking of you

I have been thinking of you, And the way you make me feel. I'm getting scared now Cause these feelings feel so real, I've always felt it, But it's never been this strong I cannot fall now I've got to hold on. When my eyes are on you It's so hard to look away. When its time too leave you I so badly want to stay. I want to tell you What's running through my head But for now I'll just keep it to myself instead, Cause I want nothing to jeopardize The friendship that we created over the years, And I don't want to be left Heartbroken and in tears. I want you to know how I feel, And that I mean it, sometimes I just want to scream it, its real. These words have been bottled up inside They explain the feelings I hide And the failed times I've tried. I don't know how much longer I will keep this in, Thinking of ways, Don't know where to begin. Deeply confused, Don't know what to do, I'll just leave it be, wait and see, It will happen if it's meant to be. I have your friendship, But I really want your heart This is tearing me apart; I don't know what to do I just want to be with you, Make you happy and make you smile. Though times I cant see you for a while, Its only cause my hearts desires can't be filled. It's hard to know you're with someone else When all I want is you here with me, I want to show you what this could be; I don't want to tell you I want you to just open up your eyes and see. I want you to feel it, The feelings that I feel, I really want to show them, These feelings are so real. But I can't show you, I probably never will because I want to walk, but your standing still. These are the feelings inside of me, That are locked away Waiting to be free, Drowning my heart in misery.

When I look into your eyes

When I look into your eyes, I am nothing but surprised.
I know about your past and how it didn't last,
How you got hurt, burnt, Abused and used,
and i bet your confused.

You deserve better, if not always and forever.
You said you didn't care, But you couldn't bare,
Isn't it such a scare.

Let me into your life and Ill show you that I care.
Like an endless dream Ill always be there.
I know your busy but please make time.
Working so much should be a crime.

You need time alone, and some time to think,
Let your feelings out why having a drink.
Forget about the past and look to the future,
I know your not ready, and I'm not trying to push you,
Just wanted to let you know that ill always be with you

they way

For you my sweet angel I would die
I'd pick all the stars from the sky
And give them all just for you
To let you know how much I love you

My angel I'll love you thru all eternity
I would do anything for you sweetie
I wrote this poem from my heart
To let you know your my sweetheart

Please stay with me forever
Take my hand and lets be together
Lets fly up to the heavens above
And show everyone we are in love

I just want one more day with you

I just want one more day with you

I'm so sad and depressed Is all I want to do is rest I go to sleep at night But my dreams I just can't fight I think of you lying in that bed And wonder if there is anything I could have said I wish you were still here But I know that you are still near I love you more than you know I just wish you didn't have to go I just want one more day with you And I know thats what you would have wanted too I miss you more and more each day There is so much more we had to say I know I will see you again But my life is just started to begin.

OVER FOR NOW

I knew someday it would have to end
I knew eventually I would have to go back to calling you friend
It's killing me that now that day has come
If it's for the best then where is this pain from
I know deep inside that this is what I had to do
but it's breaking my heart to walk away from you
I'm trying my best to appear strong
but it's hard when part of me says that in your arms is where I belong
I still love you with all my heart
that's not going to change even though we're apart
You were my first love and my first kiss

There are so many of our special times I'm going to miss
All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true
But for now from a distance is where I'll be loving you
I think you need me as a friend to help you through
because there are things I can't control that are hurting you
We both have issues no one knows of
neither of us had the strength to be true to our love
Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be
but for now please don't stop loving me
Even though I'm not your girlfriend I'll still be here
With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear
The story of love can be quicker than the blink of an eye
But our story of won't be over until the day that we die
Until We Meet Again

WE MUST ALLOW

Friends go bye and bye...
Like jet fighters fly...
Quickly past and away from us...
Why did they leave us...?


For it is their choice...
Their own voice...
Whether it be wrong or right...
We each have our own candlelight...


But things may be more clear...
Without them here...
It sounds crazy...
But they are the crazy ones...


They are crazy for leaving...
Crazy for believing...
That it would be better somewhere else...
If they beg, we won't give them any help...


For they left us...
In the dust...
On a long dirt road...
With our mind overflowed...


We Don't Know Why...
We just cry...
We Don't Know How...
We just pout...

All We Know Is...
We Must Allow...

GOOD BYE

So confused
Not knowing what to do
I love you so much
But I love him too

Most of the time
all we ever do is fight
I really don't have a clue
on how to make it right

I want to be with you
But he is never off my mind
I'm sorry that I am hurting you
I'm sorry I'm that kind

Why do I still love my ex
I ask myself everyday
I have you now
But I just want to hold him and say

I miss you so much
You are the love of my life
I want to be with you forever
I want to be your wife

He would never hurt me
Curse at me or lie
So that is why I have to say
I'm sorry and good-bye.

Never doubt

The glowing fires of midnight skies raise the morning as they fly.
A radiant sphere of enduring power ignites the world with light in showers.

A twinkle in the father's eye, a searching quest and lightest sigh.
For though the stars are bright and grand, he reaches farther for her hand.

A creature knit in darkest womb, woven with majestic loom,
in His image you are made, right and complete with naught a blade.

The loving heart He takes and molds; lifts the tissue; then He folds. A work of art, a dear gem pure; drenched in starlight He is sure.

Though the glory of the stars reaches deep and stretches far,
a child of God is more precious still and you dear daughter were His Will.



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Never doubt the love your father showers you with

I WISH

I wish you were here
I wish you were close
and those are the times that I'm wishing the most.

I gave you that ring you wear on your hand
and like time in an hour glass, you slip away like sand.

I want you so bad to hold, and to touch
and that is because I love you so much.

And I want you to know whatever you do
I will always be here

and I will always love you.

NOBODY CHILD

Nobody's child cries alone in the dark
Soured milk mixed in her tears leave a mark
Blonde curls in tangles, nits in her hair
Shadows on walls keep her company there

Small tv set plays on, Dora, Blues Clues
Daddy loves liquor, neglected, abused
Mommy bipolar, won't take her meds
Nobody's child forgotten instead

Endless the loneliness, hungry, in pain
Heartbreak, her ear aches, diapers unchanged
Medicine scrips lie crumpled, unfilled
Nobody's child eating crumbs that she spilled

Nobody's child falling fast through the cracks
Precious time lost, can never give back
New mommy holds her, dries her sad eyes
Heaven at last heard the sweet baby's cries

Nobody's child is gone for today
Somebody loves her, she smiles and she plays
Arms hug her closely, tender the care
If she's hungry or lonely, her angel is there

LIBARETED

Liberated, I'm free from you
Liberated, bondage is through
Liberated, I'll speak my view
Liberated, life to pursue

Oh come and hear the news
I am now free to choose
There is no more abuse
Gone are the loathsome blues

Because I'm
Liberated, I'm free from you
Liberated, bondage is through
Liberated, I'll speak my view
Liberated, life to pursue

An end to oppression
Freedom of expression
There'll be no concession
Gone is the depression

Because I'm
Liberated, I'm free of you
Liberated, bondage is through
Liberated, I'll speak my view
Liberated, life to pursue

MIXED EMOTION

I feel so diffident in your presence,
Your confident playfulness drips all over me
You played with me like a little boy
Would play . . . You have spiraled my emotions
I sit here speechless . . . First you smelled my hair.
I looked at your little soft body
Your innocence concealed by others
But blaring loud in my ears as the
80's music further enticed my need for
summer love
Your weariness shows in your dark
Puppy eyes . . . your life, your experience
your hurt, carefully put away. I reach out to you
To embrace you, to let you know I care
More than anyone ever could. I touch your
soft skin. Our bodies fit perfectly as we embrace
Like two perfectly crafted puzzle pieces.
If only I could kiss you passionately,
Without hesitation. Without any of the thoughts
of entangled relationships.
Our hearts both contain so much complexity
Our pasts sickly warped . . .
But the noise of the silent summer
Molds our problems into one shared love. It seems that to you it
is all so superficial, and it saddens me to
know I love you from the deepest hole in my
Heart. You are beautiful, innocent, my little
Boy. We long to play, frolic, and never grow up.
Yet we are drawn together by our soft lips craving for
fulfillment. Longing to be held and loved . . . But do you
Really feel more, do you hold that capacity to love
As deeply as I do? . . . No you are just a little boy, but I am
Just as innocent, so maybe you do love me
As I love you. Your summer love. I crave your
Innocence. Your pillow lips still linger on my neck
You have made me feel so giggly and bubbly inside
Perhaps I don't have to grow up. Perhaps this hope
That you have given me can last a few months, or until
we see each other once again. I feel so happy, so passionate,
so optimistic. How could you do that to me? What
An incredible aura you give off. But perhaps I interpret your
Flirtatious gestures as more than they are. But you kept me to
yourself. You took authority and told the swarming boys
around me to leave me alone . . . For I belonged to you
That's what you said. Your little hand dangled in the air,
waiting for me to come to your side. Yes, you indicated
your need for me, but there is that chance that you
wish for something in the shallow waters. But whatever my contortions
of your feelings may be, you've allowed me to dream of love once again.
But the fear of hurt lies in the background, as I know
You aren't strong, confusion lurks in your soft eyes.
Despite your problems, I love you and you have made
me feel truly overwhelmed. Truly happy. Truly full of
Wholeness and love. Let's snuggle. Smile with me
Tickle me and make me
Giggle!

EMPTY LOVE

When happiness is just a dream
In memory's distant past
And marriage just a fantasy
Which never seems to last

When laughter is unheard of
And frowns replace a smile
When people live in silence
And friends go out of style

When love is an unknown word
And hate the thriving passion
When peace is far behind us
And war the latest fashion

When all these things come to pass
And every word's a hidden knife
Then people are merely shadows

Just living an empty life

LET NOT GO

I am loosed, I am free
I have no responsibility
No longer to be found
The shackles and chains that had me bound

A new life waits ahead
It is the unknown what I most dread
Though I'm free as a dove
I'd surrender if bound by your love

Let not go is my plea
Please bring again my captivity
Without you I am lost
Hold onto me no matter the cost

FEELING OF LOVE

I have feelings of love for the guy I see. Does he love me too, what does he think of me? I wish I could tell him he makes me whole, but I'm afraid to say what's deep in my soul. I don't want to lose him, for I would be alone, and some days I just can't wait to hear his voice on the phone. He does certain things to make me feel loved, some days he wants to be alone and my heart is shoved. I want to feel as though I am his safeguard, the one he can come to when things get hard. I will always be there to help him along, and before we met I wasn't as strong. I wish I could tell him what I feel inside, but I'm afraid of what he'll say, how he'll act on the outside.

PARENT JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND

itting at the dinner table, they ask you about your day.
You start complaining on and on how nothing goes your way.
Your friends are everything but true and you feel all alone.
You know it's time to make a move but you fear what's unknown.

You haven't smiled for a while and everything seems wrong.
You haven't felt quite like yourself in what feels like so long.
On and on you spill your tears in hopes of some advice,
But all they seem to have to say are words that won't suffice.

"Oh please get over it, you'll be fine, you're such a drama queen,
Exaggerating every problem because you're just a teen."
You walk away and hear them laugh behind your troubled back
Not knowing that you really need help getting back on track.

They think your life's as simple as deciding black or white,
Not knowing it's the grays between that keep you up at night.
Your simple wish you hope to grant is to make them care,
To guide you through when in need and always have them there.

They think we have it easy in this new age world we're in,
but yet they never take the time to step where we have been.
They always think they're always right because they're in command,
But when will parents realize that they just don't understand?